The Bubble

I thought the farewell would be sad, heartbreaking…

I wrote down every thought, emotion,

Then I burned it…

It was anything but sad.

It was liberating, positive, happy…

As if the whole experience was like a bubble.

The moment I popped it, truth revealed itself…

It was never meant, never real, merely a mirage in the desert.

Instead of the anticipated sadness – peace.

Realization – Happiness!

I know true happiness.

Completeness – fulfillment.

I have truly found the answer…

The secret that most people seek for, but few ever find.

Hot or Cold for Christmas?

As I am preparing the turkey for tomorrow’s feast, I cannot help but think back on how Christmas has changed for me over the years.

From the carelessness of childhood, the warmth as it can only be in Bloemfontein in December or the beautiful beach of Bothastrand;

BBQ or cold cuts and salads - to the life and responsibilities of single parenthood, the cold as only Calgary can be in December (a balmy 0* C today – could have been – 20*); 

A turkey dinner with stuffing, cranberry sauce and don’t forget the eggnog!!!

From being surrounded by family, to starting my own traditions.

I am happy to live a life today where I decided to only allow positives in it. 

The fruits are fantastic and glorious. 

I see the blessings in every situation in my life and with a thankful heart I prepare the turkey to celebrate the birth of Christ with children, new adopted family and dear friends, even strangers. 

After a month of continuous caroling (which I was told lights me up like a Christmas tree), I truly have the spirit of Christmas in my heart today.

I thank God for the gift of technology (skype) that brings my family in South Africa into my house.

And I thank Him for bringing so many beautiful people across my path this year, to touch my heart and help me grow.

How blessed am I!

Have a fantastic Christmas, however you celebrate, whatever you eat and regardless of how warm or cold the temperatures are.  

It is what is in the heart that truly counts!

Marina

Flight to Freedom

I climb in, accompanied by adrenalin, anticipation, expectation, excitement.

I see the vibrant colors and enjoy the energy of this experience.

Then they light the flame and an accelerated rush of excitement goes through my whole being.

This is finally happening!  I am ready!

I take a moment to drink in every piece of detail of this glorious moment; the meadow, green, clouds; birds, beautiful colors above, the flame as I feel its heat.

Then a sudden movement, filled with enough hot air to take off.

But, it only moves a few feet, then stops.

I look down and see the rope still pinned securely to the ground, in fact, more than one rope…

Looking closer I am startled by the recognition.

I see my fears, my self-pity, and worthlessness, lack of self-love, victimhood, not feeling good enough and most of all doubt…

I choose!  I choose to look up at Hope and with the deep sense of peace I get the answer:  “Break it!”

One by one I break them. Affirming over and over whom I truly am, and what I truly am.

I choose to disconnect from each one, from the people connected to them, the emotions, the negativity, working through forgiveness, releasing.

Little by little there is more movement – upwards…

With diligence I push forward and then the voice: “Just Be…”

“I am!” - I see how the last rope is being released, gently, lovingly.

I take a deep breath as I see, feel and experience FREEDOM!

I take one last glance down and see the broken ropes as they become smaller and smaller and I KNOW that I just said farewell to my past.

I choose to look up, to look at the real me, the freedom, the potential…

I feel Love, Joy, Worth, Value, Trust and Success.

I am complete:  I lack no more!

Flying, in my hot air balloon.

Soaring

From high above I look down.
Everything that I used to struggle with all my life are way down below.
I have stepped into a higher realm.

A higher level of awareness and OH! How I enjoy this journey!
Reading and hearing for so many years about the "bigger picture", it is pure joy to be in it;
To be soaring high on eagles wings and to live my true purpose.

I see you struggle down there. Laboring in vain...
Crying, praying, pleading, asking "WHY?"
My heart goes out to you, but I cannot go down to you again...
I cannot go back to a life of limitations, lack, mediocrity, pain and suffering...
I cannot even offer to meet you halfway.
But...
I can invite you to come up here.
You can choose to join me and live YOUR true potential!
An invitation to come to a place where all the masks of ego, self protection, fear, hurt, blame, shame and your past will be stripped away.
Where your soul stands in bare nakedness.
Naked before God...

Light Hearted

The threat of negativity was tempting my soul.

For a moment I allowed it and second-guessed the real me.

For a moment I allowed it to take my focus away from my purpose.

What beautiful, pure love and grace I know to be able to disconnect from it.

How very peaceful my soul after cleaning it from all darkness.

After being filled with Glory from head to toe,

I feel how the heaviness lift and that joyous sensation enter to allow pure Light into place.

How blessed I am to be me.

I read this on a card yesterday: “Look past the seeming errors, mistakes and misunderstandings and see only the love within each person (including yourself).

Your resolute focus upon the love that underlies every situation brings about healing in undreamed of ways”.

And today I feel it. I am it.

Alignment, My Choice

In this crazy life, distractions tries to pull me away from You.
Around every corner they wait and tempt me to follow them and turn away from Alignment.
But I choose...
In the end choice is the most significant talent I have.
I choose Alignment and my reward is Peace.
Knowing that tonight when I go to rest,
It is Well With My Soul.
I have done nothing today to disconnect from You.
My Focus, My Inspiration

With Thankfulness

M

From Under My Tree

I have a tree, in my living room...  I look out the window from under my tree, and right now I see snow.  I do live in Canada, you know...
So I have a tree.  I look up and see green...
I sit under my tree and create.  Whether it is writing, taking the guitar and playing, practicing for a gig or writing a new song.
I sit under my tree and pray, meditate, reflect... Where I find my strenth and inspiration.

I started writing in 2007 more as therapy than anything else, but as time goes, the need for more writing was developed, so here I am.
Little by little there will be more of "me" shared here.

Welcome to my blog!

Marina